January 6th, 2026
an egoist perspective
I wrote a whiny ass entry a couple days ago. Today, I was graced by this piece of art.
And it reminded me that, ya know…. things arent so bad.
Maybe that’s fucked. To compare myself to someone I know nothing about, and see myself as better off than them. Surely everybody does that no? Or maybe I’m just a narcissist. I wonder if a narcissist is capable of being self aware? It almost seems like an oxymoron, so I guess I’ll have to wait for someone else to bring it to light for me.
I feel like that’s also human nature though. Endless comparison. I don’t think there’s a single soul out there that has never seen someone else and saw themselves envious of their existence. It can be anything. The way they look, the art they can create, their wealth. I think Buddhism is all about denying yourself of such a feeling, but I think that’s wrong. If I never had the self awareness to put others on a pedestal greater than my own, I would still be the same weird ass kid I was in middle school. That being said, this is also a disgusting overgeneralization of that religion
Regardless, Ill always be a prideful, envious creature. That’s okay.
Thank you bigdope478
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merci
oh also, Fuck Ice!!!
