December 28, 2025
somebodytellmeifimbeingnaive
Fuck a new year resolution. That being said, its time to lock tf in!!!!!!! I learned alot last year when it come to music, but not NEARLY enough as I should have. Instead I played alot of overwatch and focused on other side shit kill me…… whatever tho wereback.
Last month I just wanted to actually see if I could stay consistent, and now im obsessed and I dont really think thats gonna change any time soon so Id call that a success
This month Im tryna focus on my theory knowledge and skills. I already recently learned how to freely play the major scale on piano and that shit is sooooo useful I cant believe I waited this long. I wanna be able to actually play chords n allat too not just play melodies but its a good start.
Okay thats all
You got this shit!!!!!!
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merci
January 12, 2026. 10:14 pm
BlessedaretheForgetful
I’m way past the time I usually sleep. I’m gonna be very tired all day tomorrow. How funny is that, to be my age and need to sleep at 9 pm or else they cant function the next day.
I felt the compulsion to watch this movie today, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. Bad idea. It made me remember that falling in love could be actually kinda #bodacious. I always tell myself that i dont really care for relationships, that I’m perfectly happy alone. In all honesty I am. But such a sentiment past a certain threshold is just a facade.
Part of me wants to redownload hinge. I purposely nuked my account so that the shame of the “new here” flag would keep me off; and it is, smart move December me. The whole concept of meeting people through an app really is also just not really for me. I believe it can work for some people, but I truly hate the nature of it. I just can’t adopt the numbers game philosophy.
this is such a lame topic im putting a pin on it there
I took a lil break from music recently. I could feel burnout creeping in, so I think it was the right move. Socials are still deleted, I made a promise to myself that they wouldn’t come back until I had a reason to download them again. That reason cannot be “I’m bored and want to scroll”.
Honestly, getting rid of social media is such a good move. I truly didn’t realize how much it pacified me. I’d work, go home, scroll, play video games, sleep, repeat. Now that the never ending dopamine stream that the algorithm provides is severed, I realize how bored I actually am. I feel lost, but thats a good thing. To be lost is to be somewhere I’ve never been before, and that’s exactly what I want. Admittedly I still play my comfort game on and off, but other than that I have to find meaningful things to spend my time on.
Admittedly in the boredom I’ve found myself addicted to nicotine. I originally used it to suppress my appetite, but now I just enjoy the headrush. Oh gee the dude with an addictive personality got addicted to the substance well known to be highly addictive, who could’ve seen that coming.
Ill still never touch alcohol (alone).
That shit would destroy me.
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merci