Week 1:
//somebodytellmeifimbeingnaive

Fuck a new year resolution. That being said, its time to lock tf in!!!!!!! I learned alot last year when it come to music, but not NEARLY enough as I should have. Instead I played alot of overwatch and focused on other side shit kill me…… whatever tho wereback.

Last month I just wanted to actually see if I could stay consistent, and now im obsessed and I dont really think thats gonna change any time soon so Id call that a success

This month Im tryna focus on my theory knowledge and skills. I already recently learned how to freely play the major scale on piano and that shit is sooooo useful I cant believe I waited this long. I wanna be able to actually play chords n allat too not just play melodies but its a good start.

Okay thats all

You got this shit!!!!!!
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merci

Me cuz im learning thoery like a boss
#yupIhavedyslexia

Week2:
//error404

1/6 - I wrote a whiny ass entry a couple days ago. Today, I was graced by this piece of art.

And it reminded me that, ya know…. things arent so bad.

Maybe that’s fucked. To compare myself to someone I know nothing about, and see myself as better off than them. Surely everybody does that no? Or maybe I’m just a narcissist. I wonder if a narcissist is capable of being self aware? It almost seems like an oxymoron, so I guess I’ll have to wait for someone else to bring it to light for me.

I feel like that’s also human nature though. Endless comparison. I don’t think there’s a single soul out there that has never seen someone else and saw themselves envious of their existence. It can be anything. The way they look, the art they can create, their wealth. I think Buddhism is all about denying yourself of such a feeling, but I think that’s wrong. If I never had the self awareness to put others on a pedestal greater than my own, I would still be the same weird ass kid I was in middle school. That being said, this is also a disgusting overgeneralization of that religion

Regardless, Ill always be a prideful, envious creature. That’s okay.

Thank you bigdope478
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merci

oh also, Fuck Ice!!!

1/7 I was asked if I had a wife and kids today. I need to be shot in the back of the head

1/10 I’m so fucking bored its not even funny

Week 3:
//BlessedaretheForgetful

1/12/26 10:14 pm

I’m way past the time I usually sleep. I’m gonna be very tired all day tomorrow. How funny is that, to be my age and need to sleep at 9 pm or else they cant function the next day.

I felt the compulsion to watch this movie today, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. Bad idea. It made me remember that falling in love could be actually kinda #bodacious. I always tell myself that i dont really care for relationships, that I’m perfectly happy alone. In all honesty I am. But such a sentiment past a certain threshold is just a facade.

Part of me wants to redownload hinge. I purposely nuked my account so that the shame of the “new here” flag would keep me off; and it is, smart move December me. The whole concept of meeting people through an app really is also just not really for me. I believe it can work for some people, but I truly hate the nature of it. I can’t adopt the numbers game philosophy.

this is such a lame topic im putting a pin on it here

anyways
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merci